日本と台湾の旅行＾－＾

baby~~

I thought I must being calm already

But it just can't be so easy.

In fact , much better now

but there is one thought flash into my mind

what if ??

I don't know why I really pursue

sometimes I content easily

sometimes not

" family comes first " is the moral lesson I got from " Click "

but that time I couldn't really understand.

I knew that is important

But not so much

then......

my life just go forward without my permission

and......

everything changed

since when I cry easily ?

I don't know either

not being touched 

just being sad , sorrowful

I really want a remote control to change my past

although I knew that all these difficulties might made me much more successful

I just thought  that " too much "

I don't want to give up so many things

what if ....?

kind of childish and vealy , right ?

sorry , I am too weak

I will try as hard as possible to be stronger

I  really miss the old times , the studying time

life is filled with not only happiness but suffering



I want a colorful life

I knew that is hard 

I have lots of new things to get used to

I lost a large part in my life

just like lacking of something

I covet lots of things now

I miss my family , friends , past much

ha~

the past few days 

I was thinking I was happy and satisfied

but now 

just so-so

half , half

I want to flee away

like a fugitive

maybe he might sometimes feel happy

I want ask for a wing to fly

like a bird

and fly over the rainbow

but it just a weird thought

not to pay attention to it

I won't do silly things

baby ~

I love you guys

thank you for being here caring about me